PICTURES

BY PRESTON:

I can't stop smiling and regretting at the smiley pictures we took together... I wish I also took the moments we fought... It would be a black and white explanation of our lives... I loved when you called me silly every time we finished an argument.... I loved the way you hugged me and say it's not yet over... I keep on smiling about the way you begged for me to taste salt in your food... 

I found those pictures you sent me when you were drunk... Not forgetting those when you were sleeping.... The day I crept into our room at midnight and snapped... The pictures that you put clothes in your belly and said you are pregnant... Not forgetting the ones that I took when you fell on the floor.... After slipping on the wet tiles.. I laughed... 

I also found the ones that I took after you burnt you cake.. I smiled stupidly on that... I have never seen anyone so scared in my life... I actually regret why I did not record the voice.... It was funny... But babe... They are just pictures now... I wanted to delete them but I can't....

Iam broken into tears every time I see this pictures... I am tempted to throw my phone and say it's an accident...I want to break my phone screen.. this way I cannot flip through the pictures any more.... I am like a little kid who has dropped his candy... Constantly crying and hoping it will pick itself up.... 

I went to arrange my clothes in my room and found those beautiful matching hoodies.... They reminded me of my first date at the orchestra...  You were so selfish you wore two.....I can't control the tears dropping washing away our memories...

I can't simply imagine what I had.... You just woke up one morning and said good bye... But why?? Why didn't you tell me what you wanted... What was going on... Why you thought I can't be the one... I saw your picture with him too... Both of you looked Adorable I admit.... But at least you could have said good bye with a kiss and hug.... Did you have to cheat your way out....???

Babe I wish I had the power to change past.... I would easily erase all our memories... They say real men don't cry... But I wonder how that is possible if all that goes through my mind is your presence and absence...  All I want and dream of is your warm kiss and tight hugs....All I long is your presence in my kitchen counter asking.... A little more?

I hope this finds you well my love... Remember my bones love more than souls do....

 2017™

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