AM NOT SURE😯😒

AM not sure... I'm not sure of the time since I last sat on this floor... crying...I'm not sure if today the sun showed it's face... I'm not sure if the wind blew today.... I'm not sure... Im not sure if it rained today... But if it did.. it must be muddy outside....I'm not sure if my email was flocked today... I'm not sure if the visitors who we invited came and knocked at the door....I am not sure....

Why didn't this happen... Last year.. or the year before... Why didn't this happen when you were too busy... Did it have to happen just when you here... This year??

I, we had just prepared the Easter eggs... I, we had just prepared the Easter chocolates... The Easter turkey and dinner...Why papa... Did it have to be a headache....You have battled with cancer....You have battled with leukemia...And skin cancer... You have battled with pneumonia and HIV and AIDS....

But I want you here... Maybe I should ask someone with more power... Did he have to?? I want him here with me....I want just one more dinner... I want just one more breakfast and bread... Breakfast in bed.. I want one more lunch with him....

I want him to teach me his drifting skills... And that breaking thing... with my roller skates...I peep through the keyhole in your bedroom door... I see you lying motionlessly covered with your blankets and sheets...I want to write you one more poem... I want you to read that last poem I wrote about you... Wake up.. talk to me... I want to talk to you... Soul to soul... I want you to know you have died on an Easter Monday....

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*Easter Monday*

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