HIM & SINGLE.

By Preston Andie 

He is single, and you wish he isn't, because every time you talk to him, and you see how much awesomeness is packed into one guy who is single, you can't help but wish that you were his. In fact, he subtly infers that you can be his, and you want to, but you can't, because you are in a relationship. 

Your boyfriend is cool, you liked him for this. But suddenly, you start to want something a little more than just cool. Something more spicy...something more interesting than the safety of "cool." Something like HIM. 

You think of him all day and talk with him all night. You try to convince yourself it's nothing. He's just a friend after all. He's just a friend, yet when he gives another girl the attention he gives to you, your heart starts to race like a horse whose stable just caught fire.

'This is trouble', your heart tells you. 'Nah, it's nothing. I just like his personality,' you tell yourself. But deep down inside of you, you know your heart is right, you just wish it isn't. 

The longer with him you linger, the tasteless your relationship becomes. Your boyfriend— the same guy that sent your brains juggling in excitement the first time he put his lips on yours— suddenly becomes some other guy in the way of your happiness. When you hear the message tone in your phone, you leap forward to grab it, hoping it's him, the other guy. But it isn't him. It's your boyfriend who texted, so you hiss. Then you wonder why, why you suddenly want to talk to him more that you want to talk to your boyfriend. It is then you realise that subconsciously, you heart has helped you set your priorities. 

Suddenly, you start to find faults with your boyfriend. Suddenly everything he does gets at you. Suddenly he's no longer as cool as he used to seem. Suddenly you start to get irritated at how insecure and vulnerable he is. Suddenly you start to realise that your relationship is about to crash...and strangely, you are happy about it. Long things short, he leaves you— your boyfriend. He says he's had enough, so he walks away. But he doesn't walk away completely. He walks away, but stays just behind the door, hoping that you will realise what you did and call him back, but you don't. You let him go, because freedom at last. 

Relieved of the burden of a boyfriend, you are now single, just like him. Now, you no longer see the obstacle that hinders you from leaping into his arms.  You text him eagerly— "It's over. We are no longer together. He left me." Yes, you add a tone of sobriety, for his empathy. He empathises though, too much infact. 

"Why don't you work things out?" He asks. 

"Nah nah,let him go, I won't beg." You say, gleefully. 

"But, no. Seriously, try to work things out with him."

His insistence suddenly puts you in an awkward position. You start to question everything. Is he insane? Doesn't he want you? Didn't he like you anymore? 

What you didn't know, was that he is single only because he made himself so. What you didn't know was that he is not one for commitments, so he stays away from relationships of his own while he feeds on attention from women who are in relationships with other people. It is then you realise that you just made yourself single to be with a guy who prefers to remain single. Because as long as he remains single, he remains in the market, and as long as he remains in the market, he is going to attract people like you, who have lost value for what they have over what they want from somewhere else. 

You realise that he needs you to be in a relationship with someone else while he tortures you with his charms, that way he can feed off you without owing you any commitments. 

So you just call your boyfriend and try to make up with him. But he tells you to go fuck yourself, because your boyfriend waited in vain for you to come back when he needed you the most but you just weren't there for him and he start consoling himself that he lost you and so he gave up on you. 

So before quiting on your relationship think twice because of what you'll loose instead love your guy and make the best out of it.

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